I think the best advice I've gotten lately has been that I'm just going to have to get back to Chicago and see how things go before I decide what I really want to do next. I know what it's like to live here in Mumbai now, but I don't know what it's like to leave my love here and go back to live in Chicago. I'm going back with half a mind to turn and come back here again soon, because I'm truly not decided. There's part of me that is craving Chicago again, but if this guy is really the person I want to be with (and I think he is), it feels foolish to just leave if I have the chance to be with him. On one hand, I have to be in a place where I want to be, living in a way that is sustainable -- so clearly if I come back, something has to change in the way I'm living so I'm not wearing myself down. Staying here sounds exhausting, but so does being so far from him...neither is really sustainable, and I don't know that I can just get used to either scenario. So I may fly back and try to look like I'm living a normal life in Chicago, but it's going to be a while before I'm truly decided on where I'm going to be for more than three months at a time.
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If this were a Facebook post, I'd hit the "Like" button. :)
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