Blog love

Sometimes I am self conscious about my blog. I wonder if, when my entries are read consecutively, they're just totally disjointed. I actually try to make them individual entries, so that I can maybe avoid writing the same thing I did at some point before; but I wonder if that makes me sound totally unstable and all over the place. There has been a lot going on in my life in the last year-plus now, a ton of change in work and relationships, a lot of traveling and absorbing, and a lot of thinking and panicking and celebrating through it all. And so it happens that while my last entry was focused on my feelings of loneliness, this one is joyful.

Maybe I've not said this before, ever, but...I'm in love. I'm characteristically private in my relationships and spare in my expressions of affection, but it sort of bothers me at times that I never let people get much of a glimpse into my happiness because I'm too busy keeping my cool and looking calm and collected. Sometimes I worry that people mistake me for a robot. But I am super smitten and so very grateful for this very lovely guy. I didn't know how good it could be (whatever "it" is), and I strongly suspect it's only getting better from here. With him, and with life in general, as tough as it all can be sometimes.