I've been too old and corporate lately to feel interesting enough to blog, thus the flakiness. Work has basically taken over every vacant brain cell I have, and then I can hardly stand to Qwerty my way through a ramble here. But next week I'm on vacation, which brings with it a brand new excuse for neglecting to share my thoughts.
One of the things that I've been realizing lately through my relentless introspection is that I'm not terribly remarkable. I think that over the course of school and childhood, and even since then, it was easy to see the ways in which I'm different from other people, and I was given a lot of praise. I'm kind of ashamed to admit it, but I now realize that there are plenty of other people who are better than me at about anything that I do...I'm ashamed because it's taken so long to really, consciously realize that. It's not that I'm devaluing myself, it's just that I've got too many examples of truly extraordinary humans in my consciousness to think that I'm a stand-out at all. So now I have to learn to be okay with it, but I still would like to be the best at something, because I'm stupidly competitive.
4 comments:
Being the best at being my partner probably doesn't cut it for you... but you've got the corner on that one. :-*
You are totally going to be Spanarkel's best auntie! And you are definitely my best sister-in-law :)
Who could ask for a better sister? You are quite remarkable, and you have challenged me to think about things I never thought about. I have looked at the world in new ways. The way a person can influence another in such a positive way is a big deal:)
you guys are all so sweet...thanks!
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